Chapter 46 Failure to Launch

A/N:  I apologize for the unusually long chapter. I had to rework this and fit it all in one and I hope that you understand and forgive me for the twelve thousand words. This shouldn't happen again! ;-)

WARNING

This chapter involves a BDSM scene between two consenting adults. Edward is submitting to Bella well he was supposed to anyway.

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I need to clarify that the Bold Italic words are the voice of Edward’s inner demon.

The Italics are Bella’s inner demon.

The bold is Bella’s thoughts

These are all the things that Edward will hear throughout this chapter and I hope that makes it easier.

EDWARD’S ETERNAL KISS

Chapter 46

Failure to launch

~x~x~x~EDWARD~x~x~x~

If you love someone so much, that you would do anything, be anything for that person would you do it?

Before I met Bella, I may have said no. However, I didn’t know what love really felt like until I met her. I was arrogant and detached from everyone around me that I isolated myself from the rest of the world. I placed myself above everyone that had experienced love and in all honesty, I pretended that it didn’t bother me to be without a mate or to even care about what it felt like to be in love.

I may have told Bella most of my reasons for getting involved in the world of BDSM and used the excuse that I had a coven of submissives so that I could maintain control over them. That to me was a good enough reason for doing what I had.

Being a mind reader, I know that everyone has kept some secret or another. I too had a few left unsaid or held on to them for my own reasons.

I wanted to feel that connection with another and even though I didn’t participate in the playroom, it made me feel like I was a little bit normal in the eyes of others.

I didn’t want to be the one that was without a mate. I certainly didn’t want every one to know that I was still a fucking virgin after all these years. I may have even mourned for love, even though I never had it to begin with to lose in the first place.

When Tanya came into my life, I thought for sure that maybe she would be the one that may finally make my defective body able to react. I remember the day she was sitting at my desk during the interview. I truly thought she was the most beautiful girl I had seen. I let my hopes get up and when she appeared in the playroom that first night I finally thought that for once I was going to be normal.  Turns out I wasn’t. Nothing she did wrong of course…I started to believe I was trying far too hard.

I just didn’t respond. Over the first year, I was certain I had developed feelings for her. It took me a while to figure out that the feelings I had were basically nothing more than respect for how far she pushed herself to strive for better always wanting to conquer and not liking when she failed at something. I didn’t deserve her devotion and yet I dismissed her so easily. In hindsight, I know it was truly ungentlemanly thing to do after everything she did to please me. I hate to think about where she is now or what she has gotten herself into. I have thought of her on occasion but I wouldn’t go seeking her out. It is her life to live as she chooses.

I sat here with Ben as he went into things I had heard before. I sighed heavily and he stopped pacing and turned to look at me as I had obviously pissed him off.

“You don’t deserve her. You still don’t fucking get it Edward. Am I wasting my time? Why? Why do you really want to continue in this lifestyle?”

“She needs me to and I want to.” I was surprised with this question but I found myself unable to look at him.

“I know that first night in your playroom is none of my business but I need to know something. What happened? Who instigated this? I mean Jesus Christ you were both virgins for crying out loud. How do two virgins end up in a BDSM playroom for their first time?”

I kept my eyes down and finally spoke after an unusually long silence. He wasn’t going to let this go. “You know this. She agreed to submit to me one night a week if I agreed to try the vanilla relationship thing. Then she asked if we could start that night and before I knew it she was on her knees and God she looked beautiful.” I looked up when I heard him.

He laughed lightly shaking his head. I looked away from him a little irritated that he found any of this amusing.

He then came over and sat down next to me and asked, “Edward look at me.”

BEN

 

I brought my eyes up to meet his and once he had my full attention he asked, “You have no idea how to deal with any of this do you? You’re like a lost little boy who wants to be an adult like everyone else.  I am not saying that to make you feel bad, Edward, I am just telling you what I am finally starting to grasp. You’re impulsive, selfish, and a prime example of the ‘I want it now’ generation. I think she may be a lot like you in several ways as well, but at least know that you want her. Sadly, though you’re just winging it. You have gotten away with shit for so long and what scares me is that you are on the verge of screwing it all up if you don’t admit to yourself that your trying to be someone who knows what their doing when you have absolutely no experience in it and are too afraid to ask for help or advice. You have to admit that to yourself and until you do then it’s all useless.”

I just stared at him.

“So Bella submitted herself to you and for your own selfish reasons you allowed it to happen and have been pretending to be in total control the whole time when you are anything but controlled. I should have seen the signs when your actions were screaming at me and I was just too damn stubborn to believe that you were trying to tell me something without actually saying the words. I kept telling myself he let them go because he fell in love. Admit it Edward you let them go because you didn’t want to live up to a role you couldn’t fill anymore or never really did, only now I believe you didn’t want to. You don’t want to dominate her and your doing it because she is a natural submissive. I would even guess you’re afraid you will lose her if you don’t be this for her.  Am I correct in that assumption?”

“You’re wrong.” I looked away from him because I didn’t want to see that look he was giving me. That smug expression.

“Am I? Be honest here for once Edward, please. I am asking you to tell me what it is you are doing.”

Then for some reason my mouth just opened and it all came out.

Everything.

“I was alone for a long time Ben. It is hard enough being what we are. Then to be given the burden of a gift that makes us even more freaks among the freaks we already are.”

I sighed.

“At least we had those two things in common. Me, you, Alice and Jasper. But I had to be the one out of all of us to be the biggest freak and have absolutely no desire for the opposite sex. Do you have any idea how mortifying that is? No you don’t. No one does.

It is humiliating and embarrassing. When I finally become interested in something that is at least somewhat sexual in nature even though I don’t experience the thrill of this lifestyle, I could hear it in the thoughts of others and I wanted that for myself. I could sense the excitement it brought out. The control I could have. I wanted this more than anything but because of what I was I still wasn’t able to grasp it or embrace it fully and not only that but my submissives weren’t enough to make me seem normal even in that area of my life. So yeah I was coming to the conclusion that I was just about to give up even on this.”

I continued.

“That doesn’t mean I didn’t want it. I want this more than any thing now but you’re right. I don’t know what I am doing. Hell, I don’t know how to separate the two roles. The fact that I am falling in love with her and the fact that I know what I should be doing but have blurred the lines because of my feelings.”

He just continued to sit there. His thoughts invading my own.

I want it all. Tell me everything. From the moment, you met her.

“It was like she came into my orbit literally spinning my world totally out of my control and sucks into hers. It really killed me to know that I kept thinking how much I wanted to rip into her throat and drain the life out of the one and only girl that finally woke me up both inside and out. She walked into my home and owned me without uttering a word. My body was like her puppet. I reacted to her physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I fell in love with her instantly that day sitting across the table from her in the restaurant. She was so sexy, witty, and feisty. For the very first time in my entire existence, I got a fucking hard on and to experience that after never having felt it before, fuck Ben, it scared the shit out of me!”

“The more time I spent with her the more I just adored her. She didn’t act like any woman I had ever met before. Then when reality slapped me in the face in regards to humanity, her life was literally hanging in the balance and knowing that I could lose her at any given moment due to some illness or accident or some unforeseen tragedy haunted me. So I was determined to keep her forever and that is when I began working things out in my head. Making plans and the reasons came so easily to let the girls go. I dismissed them and didn’t bother to look back at the aftermath of my actions. I was solely focused on her. Then that night when she was on her knees I finally felt like it was going to happen. That I was going to be the Dominant I had longed to be with that fantasy of a faceless girl. Only now, she had a face and it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. I wanted to be her Dominant and the problem was I had no confidence or practice in the role. Then there was another problem. I was falling hard and deeply in love with her that night in that room, that I couldn’t separate the two for fear that she would walk away if I didn’t take her up on her submission. I was not about to blow that chance so I took her to the playroom to prove myself. Ben I don’t regret that night…I regret how it went down. It should have been romantic and sweet and that I do regret. But I could never regret the way she looked, the way she felt. The way she still feels to me.”

You ended up there out of fear. Interesting. Continue.

“It was the start of my irrational thinking and my now possessive irrational desire to claim her in all things. I feared if I didn’t then I could lose her and that simply can’t happen.  And without her, I would have no reason to continue living.  It’s that plain and simple.  What would be the point? To face every day without her is unthinkable. The thought of not going after her while I would continue to watch everyone around me have something that I had finally got a small taste of and lost because I didn’t act fast enough. I was scared shitless and I pushed her, begging and pleading for her to let me change her. I still don’t regret it nor will I ever because she fucking belongs to me! Just as Tia belongs to you! I fucking love her man and she is my life now and who in the hell has experience in love their first time anyway? I am certainly not the first.”

He just sat there nodding his head and taking in everything I just spilled out to him.

“Yes I am absolutely clueless as to what a vanilla relationship is. I have no experience in that or in handling a submissive, especially one I love. I am fucking scared and now….fuck now I heard her thoughts for the first time ever one night we were making love. I didn’t even tell her about it because I got scared she would flip out.”

“Excuse me?” I could hear the shock in his tone.

“Yes Ben, I have heard her thoughts. Not always, just sometimes like when we make love.  My God to hear her and feel the way she does about me is like being in my own head. I hear the things she should be saying when we are together but she is so subdued and what is screaming in her mind is not what comes out of her mouth. Alice knows and has threatened to out me. I promised I would tell her soon but I just haven’t found the best time yet.”

“Boy, when you dig your self in you really go balls out don’t you!” he shook his head. Irritated obviously.

“Edward if you love her like you just proclaimed then damn it you need to tell her that yesterday! To hold that from her is the worst thing you have ever done. If you don’t you will lose her. How can she trust you when she learns that you have kept this from her? Listen, Edward you can right this wrong but don’t fucking wait. You need to tell her.

Bella already figured out you have no experience in your Dominant role, but if you truly want to remain in the role on a once a week basis then you really need to switch to understand what she is giving to you. Edward it’s not that bad. I would have loved to have had this experience with Tia. I just hadn’t met her yet, so mine was with a Domme. I won’t tell you who it is but you do know her. She taught me how different the roles are. How important that submission is because without it you will never understand what she is giving to you. You know you can trust Bella. I trust her and I promise to train her as quickly as I can before you both do this. It is going to help you both. But then after all is said and done you will be attending some scenes that I think you truly need to witness and study them alone. Not with Bella. She will distract you. If you love her, do this for her. Become what she thought you already were. I believe you now. I know you want to do this because hell what this all boils down to is your big fat ego. As if your looks aren’t enough you, have to lead us all to believe your so fucking perfect when you were anything but! You asshole!”

He laughed hitting me in the arm.

“I have to admit it is kind of cool to know this now. I feel a little better about myself.” He gave me this huge cheesy grin and pounded his chest.

“Edward Cullen isn’t all that perfect now is he?”

“Fuck you.” I laughed.

“After you do this then we can attend several more parties together as both couples and maybe where it’s just you and I. There are some sessions where they are meant solely for Dominants in training and those are the ones you can’t take Bella to. It reveals things that she shouldn’t know. Things about aftercare, how to mask certain situations and still keep control without losing your head. Most of this stuff is for humans but it always helps to go back to what we started as and modify to meet our needs, because I think as your mentor this time I want to make damn sure your doing what you’re supposed to be doing. I really do want you and Bella to get what you both are seeking. As vampires, we have very few things we get to actually feel. Dominating your submissive is a rush there is no denying that. Plus it makes for an awesome fucking orgasm….well make that several.”

He smirked.

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Over the next couple of days, we watched a couple of scenes that Tia and Ben were willing to perform privately for us. I know this was asking a lot since I had been there but Ben and Tia were nothing but gracious and wanted nothing more than to merely help us. I will admit I was a little stunned the way Ben was with her in the playroom. He clearly loved her and could still handle being her Dominant with class and style. I listened and memorized his words because they were exactly what I had felt several times towards Bella.  We allowed them to use our playroom. Bella and I were required to sit apart and focus on the scene.

Tia entered the room fully bare. Her hair was up in a high ponytail and she walked over to where Ben stood and turned her back to him bowing her head with her hands clasped behind her neck. She knew her position and took it gracefully. 

TIA in her Submissive pose

“As my toy tonight, you are to be played with as I see fit little one. You have been tied all day to my bed just waiting until I am in NEED of you again and right now, I need you. For starters, you pussy and ass are mine the moment you crossed that threshold. You may not play with it, unless I give you permission. I will tell you how my property will be handled. You may not receive pleasure, until I say how and when. If you ask nicely, I may give permission or I may not.
As my toy, all your openings are mine. I use them as I wish and how I see fit. Sometimes I might invite a toy of yours to be used, a plug will be required to prepare you for me, and on occasions my hands. As for my cock, it will be used in them often and you know how much I love that ass of yours so it will be prepared at a moments notice. Don’t forget that. To do so will require punishment, my little one, and you know I both enjoy and hate the task of this you will quickly learn. We have guests tonight and you are going to be required to remain focused on me. You know our standard rules all still apply. Our guests however, do not so I am going to give you the opportunity to look me in the eyes and remind me as well as inform our guests of what it is I expect of you. Kneel sweet one and raise your eyes to mine and begin.”
“Yes Master. I am to kneel on my given command of the word ‘kneel’ it is the cue to open my mouth to service you first and then I am to hold until further instructions are given as to what I will be allowed to do with your seed. Usually I am worthy of swallowing. Other times when I am not, I must discard it in a place that I truly hate to do so. I am to respect you in your playroom and follow all commands promptly and without hesitance. If I hesitate, your punishment is denial of any release and you push me to nearly safe word so I am very good at being responsive and attentive to your requests.
I must first wait for the command to prepare. Once it is given, I go to my toy box find the pre-selected toy of your preference and prepare my backside for your cock. Once I am ready, I assume my position on your table while I am shackled, roped, or fastened down to be used as you see fit for the evening. It is then that our playtime is to begin.”
Ben smiled at her. “Very good little one. Tonight is an exception and we will leave out the preparations for your sweet, tight little ass. But at any time my cock may decide it needs to be where you know I love. To start though Tia, my love, your mouth is now the sanctuary to my cock. Kneel and begin.”

Bella made a comment that surprised me. She whispered that she thought Tia was a very lucky girl because Ben is one hell of a sexy Dominant.

I glanced at her a few times during a scene they were starting and when Tia took Ben in her mouth, I wondered if I should be jealous that she is watching another man. I knew that was an ungrateful and selfish thought. Here these two were doing something to improve and help us and I begin to get jealous?

I started to wonder if this was part of what falling in love was. Irrational jealousy and a need to feel in control of these strange new emotions.

Ben and Tia remained in the D/s position for the remainder of the evening. Ben would touch her throughout the night and what I found most interesting was that they thought so much alike during the moments it reminded me of Bella. How what she was thinking of her feelings, I was actually already feeling them too.

There was a moment where we were almost forgotten when Tia started to taunt Ben. He almost fell into it. His demon wanted to play rough and take her in front of us. He gained control back and put Tia and her demon in her place. I respected him for it but I imagined it had to be really hard.

Not only was I trying to learn how to dominate Bella, I was a vampire falling in love for the one and only time I ever would. My actions and feelings didn’t make sense to me at times. I was possessive and anxious. I could just imagine going to Carlisle and asking for some Xanax to calm my dead nerves that suddenly seemed alive and energized. That would be the joke of the century! I have to admit, this wasn’t easy. Love I mean. It is somewhat scary and I still gaze at her and watch her taking notice that my little Kitten is so very voyeur it’s as plain as the nose on her face.

I inhaled to check. Yep Bella was getting aroused watching them. She is such a little sex Kitten and then I felt what I would swear was my heart swelling.  How many more times was I going to look at her and feel this adoration of her grow even more?  For how long? Would it end one day? I didn’t want that. Although the feeling was different, I was starting to love feeling this way about someone. Someone who gave up everything to choose me.

Love just always seemed to look so different in movies. Carlisle and Esme were the first ones I ever witnessed fall in love and because I didn’t have it, I closed myself off from watching it bloom and form and grow. Now I wished I hadn’t.

I have only heard Bella’s thoughts sporadically and it’s strange. If it does happen, we are usually being intimate. I was truly in awe to see that her blush she frequented so much was the most genuine part of her.

I haven’t clued her in about it is mostly out of fear she will dismiss me because she has lost her privacy to her own thoughts. I had to reveal this soon now that Alice and Ben know. It would be wrong for Bella to find out any other way.

Since this little experiment has begun, I find myself wanting to please her just as she has obviously wanted to please me from the beginning so I agreed to do this and once I was in that playroom watching her, loving her, and admiring her, I still go and screw it all up when I let him out.  Now, I find I am asking myself, why? I can usually control him and have done a good job up until recently with the slip I had with that human. But now I find myself asking why I so easily gave into him this time when I allowed him to win and let him freely take over what was her scene.

It was an easy answer. I wanted all of her. She was to be mine, and that primal need I had to claim in her in all the ways she should be claimed as mine. I learned that no matter how much I loved her; my beautiful Bella had absolutely no idea of the importance of this basic need to claim every part of her because it is instinctually what drives our inner demon. Lust, selfishness, power, and control are just a few traits that we can try to manage but never really have total control over.

She pushed a limit she didn’t even know about and I can’t blame her but if she seriously thought she was going to take away this one thing from me, while I sat by and watched, she had another thing coming.

That ass was mine! This wasn’t up for debate. She agreed with me not that long ago and I do believe her vampire memory should be pretty damn near perfect. I didn’t care what we were doing at the time…when I saw the threat to what was supposed to be mine, I had no choice but to act. I knew I was going to pay for it later but for now—this right here was all mine—as I drilled into her ass.

Fuck, she was tight too. My thrusts repeated over and over, as the beast in me was finally getting what he so desperately wanted. We were both enjoying every part of claiming the girl under me. This was so sacred to me that prior to this I was going to plan on a romantic night like when I changed her with all the romance and the candles I had ordered a ton of sweet smelling lubes and was planning a night of starting off with a massage to relax her. It was all in my head and my heart.

I was really happy that the start of our evening was going rather well for us. She was one hot little Mistress. Bella mentioned something about preparing for me due to my size but she had nothing to be concerned about in regards to my cock and how it could hurt her.

She was a vampire and once I got her aroused enough just like a human she would want it. I had seen Tanya talk submissives into anal sex every single time and the outcome was always surprisingly erotic to them.

The minute that toy was about to take that all away. I had the ability for self-preservation, unlike she did and if I had to tear this entire house down to get at her—I would have done so without any doubt. The cuffs and the posts were stronger than I expected but the chain was its weakest link. I could hear it. My inner demon smiled in anticipation and before letting this go on too much longer I exploded out of them the closer that toy got to my sweet spot.  I spread her ass open and I was dripping right along with her. I knew we both wanted this. I could hear her saying it.

Here is something I didn’t expect because I have never heard any other vampire’s monologue with their inner demon, but with Bella, everything I knew was tossed out the window.

Imagine my surprise when I heard Kittenella for the first time! That was the last thing I expected to hear was her!

Kittenella was one hot little bitch and my dick got so rock fucking hard when he perked his head up and smiled in anticipation as if he recognized her voice or something. I was stunned.  Too bad they couldn’t have communicated mutually. He did okay though and took her cues and her directions and he celebrated in this new discovery.

“Oh Bella you really shouldn’t have said that!”

I un-cuffed her and flipped her over on the table she was now under me facing me as I hovered over top of her.

God I love it when he just goes after what he wants. He is so sexy and controlling. Fuck, I love this side of him!!!

She thinks so much like me…Fuck! She is so fucking innocent still but so god damn dirty and naughty and sexy all rolled up and tied with a pretty fucking bow and she wants it’s hard and fast and God damn everything in the world is the way it should be. I found her. We fucking found her!!! Now make her ours. Show her who the fuck she belongs too. Damn what a fucking invitation! She gets wetter than every submissive you have ever had! Claim her NOW~!

“You like this don’t you?” I grunted with my hand down between her slick lips pressing them into her sweet wet flesh rubbing my finger in a circular motion before I plunged my two strongly gifted fingers inside of her finger fucking her. She mewled and purred lifting her hips up off the table to get that friction she so desperately is seeking.

“You like it when I pet your pussy don’t you Kitten? I want to hear you purr baby. Oh yeah just like that. You sound so fucking sexy each sound telling me without words what you want me to do.”

At vampire’s speed, I then picked her up and slammed us both into the wall.

“Wrap those fucking sexy legs around me Bella!” I demanded and she mewled even more as she did wrapping her arms around my neck and licking my earlobe nibbling on it.

“You better hold on tight Kitten!”

I thrust into her again groaning at the sensation. Bella’s ass was beyond fucking tight. It was like my own personally tailored glove for my cock and my God the evidence that she was loving it was clearly dripping down her leg…Damn she loves this! Fuck!

Oh fucking hell that is the best feeling ever! Keep it up harder baby harder. Don’t slow down please. Fuck, give it to me. He does feel wonderful doesn’t he? Fuck that is the sexiest feeling in the world having me pinned to the wall with his cock thrusting up into the forbidden zone, feels just as good as our kitty! Fuck the speed alone he has! I am already there! I really want to come like this…I hope he doesn’t stop before I am there.

She whimpered those sweet sounds with each thrust and she hissed and nipped at my lips.

She laid her forehead against mine and I watched her as I pumped hard and fast into her tight little silky soft ass.

Her inner demon was a little bit of a bitch but the funniest part was…it turned me on. I never would have thought and then I took a moment to understand Emmett a little better when he found Rosalie to be so sexy in that bitchy way. I get it now Em really I do!

“Such a wet little kitty dripping down my cock. Hell Kitten who the fuck needs lube when I got my own dispenser right between those sweet creamy thighs of yours just oozing out for me to keep driving it home?” I nipped at her ear and licked the shell of it. She tasted so good here. I don’t know why I found her earlobe to be so suckable… I just knew that I did.

Holy shit, listen to that mouth! Fuck Tia was right that’s just shit hot!

A little reminder of the way she likes the naughty talk.

“Edward oh God baby!! So good, yes right there!”

“Is that the spot you need me to hit baby? Is that the place where you need to feel me? Tell me Kitten are you about to see an explosion of stars and hear fireworks and know that I am bringing you right where you need to be?”

Fuck yeah that’s the spot. Shit, it nearly shatters me! Yes!

“Yes! FUCK me Edward….YES!”

Oh shit I can’t control this…shit…forgive me baby I didn’t know I was that close! Damn can’t you learn to control this shit Bella? Talk about a mood killer! Fuck!!

“God damn baby did you just squirt on me? Fucking hell, you did!! Jesus Christ I am gonna fucking come the way you’re gripping on me like that Bella, fuck baby…yeah Jesus…fucking…hell…my cock is so close baby! I am about to…fuck you do this…to me…she is so tight… so close Fucking Christ!!”

I explode inside of her.

“FUCK BELLA! God baby that shit feels so fucking wonderful…shit, shit, SHIT! That’s…..oh God…there…..fuck….right fucking there!”

It works every time. Just squeeze and watch him come undone. I love that little trigger I am the only one that knows about it!

Yes I could no longer even form a coherent complete sentence and hearing her dialogue about what she thinks is her little secret causes me to pause. If her goal was an attempt to undo me…well ding, ding she just did it the little vixen.

For the first time since we met and our sex life began, I panted like a worn out dog after I had the most mind-blowing orgasm of my life buried in her sweet tight ass.

I nuzzled into her neck my body pressing against her holding her to the wall. 

My arms wrapped around her, while her legs still gripped onto my hips with her heels digging into my ass, with her arms around my neck her fingers rubbing through the back of my hair as she tugged it. I asked her again with my seductive soft voice, whispering the words as I gazed so fucking lovingly into her eyes with my dick still buried in her ass…moving it in and then out so slowly pulling it out almost all the way, to then bury it as deep as I can go in this position.

“I need to hear it Bella…tell me baby…please…” I pulled out slowly and pushed back in at the same slow pace. The movement was sensual and so fucking stimulating, “God I love the feel of you wrapped around my cock. Tell me kitten…please baby say it…say your mine…now and forever.”

I want to just fuck her! JUST FUCK HER ALREADY!

I ignored him as I was lost in her voice. It was all breathy and sexy as fuck; I was so ready to continue right where we left off. I so wanted to make her come again so I slid in and out slow as her words flowed through me.

“I am yours. I have always been Edward. Forever. I am not going anywhere. I belong to you. I need you. All of you just like this your cock feels so good…I never knew it could feel so fucking perfect getting claimed this way….do you like it baby…is it what you thought it would be?”

She squeezed around me and my body shuddered at the sensations she causes me to have.

“Oh fuck Bella there aren’t words. You are made for me. We fit. I feel you all around me and God I love the way you continue to lube my cock with your liquid honey…mm…”

I brushed my lips over hers softly whispering, “Tell me Kitten. Who do you belong to forever?” my lips moved along her jaw, nuzzling and biting her jaw bone moving down her throat and running my tongue over her scar.

“You belong to me Kitten. My devotion to you is never ending. Just know what I want and I want you with me every day for the rest of our lives! This is where we belong. Say it!” I kissed and laved my tongue over her neck along her collarbone waiting for her declaration.

She uttered every one of these words with her nose pressed against mine our foreheads touching our eyes locked on the others as my erection began to harden again.

Her lips pressed softly to mine and she licked hers purring out the hottest shit I had ever heard.

“I want to watch.”

“Watch what?” I breathed gazing in those beautiful burgundy eyes of hers. I think I see a hint or two of gold in them.

“Watch you fuck me….ramming that beast into me. Put the Esse in front of the mirror. Bend me however you want to fuck me just so long as I get to see what it is like to watch that beautiful cock of yours pound into me. I want to see what you see.”

I groaned out loudly. “Jesus fucking hell if that is what you want Kitten…I have the perfect position but baby I promise it will go deep…are you sure you can handle that?”

“I can handle you and Edwarcula.” She gave a smug little look. My brow rose in surprise at her words.

“Oh can you now? What are you saying Kitten? Are you telling me that you want me to let him have his way with you?” My hips continued the movement in and out of her sweet ass.

“Fuck that is exactly what I am saying. If you need a little goading I know just the thing that will get him all worked up.”

She managed to sneak out from underneath me and moved away over to the Oral chair. She put one foot up on it, spread her legs, and started to rub her clit. I stood there for a moment watching Kittenella coax him out. God she is sexy, innocent, and so fucking naughty.

Mm…I can’t believe how wet I am. This feels so good. You got a good view. You know you want this. You know you want to control this moment. I could fight you for it. Odd’s are I could take you too.  

FUCK! She is a sassy confident little bitch isn’t she? Too bad, she is delusional.

I had the Eesse in front of the mirror and time to prove a point to the little she devil.

“Bring that sweet ass over here.” Her eyes were taking in my form.

“Come and get it if you want it.” She teased her fingers getting close to the rim of her ass.

“Bella.” I gave a warning with my Master persona locked in place. She knows this tone.

Eww such a scary voice.

Her finger pressed in gently as she explored the place that I only claimed a moment ago.

Silly girl.

“You’re playing with fire Bella.” The words hung on that tone of warning.

I hope she does it. Do it. I fucking dare you!

I already had her in my arms, her back was against my chest, her hair was in my face, and I brushed it over to one side letting my hands go down as I gripped her wrists. I lowered my body allowing it to contour to the chair. I looked over her shoulder at us in the mirror as I straddled the chair her legs were just as wide as mine were. “Look at that. I can see everything. Look at that sweet pussy glisten in the candlelight. Fuck, I love how wet you get for me…so fucking wet its lubing up your ass getting ready for another good hard fucking Kitten. Hmm?”

My hands came around and pinched her nipples cupping her breasts. “Trust me I am not done and I believe you begged to see it. Look up Bella.” I demanded and her eyes scanned up to the mirror that was angled slightly perfectly giving us both one awesome view of the head of my wet cock pressed against the crack of her ass seeking out warmth.

“Let her out.” I breathed in her ear keeping my eyes focused on her expression in the mirror. I wanted to see her the exact moment she did.

“Relax Kitten…I wont move until you formally introduce me to her.”

Her eyes dilated.

Bingo.

The darkened hue of her eyes and the way her mouth clenched along with her ass I knew she was there at the surface waiting.

“What the fuck are you waiting for a formal written invitation?”

And there she is. Such a sexy little bitch. He smiled.

“Oh Kitten; you’re making my dick twitch in anticipation.” I reached around and smacked her pussy hard. I held no restraint and she chirped out a squeak.

“Oh…what’s wrong? Don’t let her retreat. Bring her out but I warn you I will remind her of the rules in my playroom and I do expect her to still show some respect Isabella.”

I smacked her inner thigh. Her eyes narrowed.

“Don’t forget your place either Isabella.” I growled nipping her neck.

I pinched her right nipple and twisted it hard and tight, her eyes roll back from the sensation.

How dare him! We have him so wrapped show him.

Oh, come on shut that little fucking troublemaker up. Let me at her!

“It’s time to play Kitten.” I didn’t recognize my own voice her eyes met mine in the mirror and her lip lifted slightly.

“If you can keep me down long enough to come in me then you get total control back. If you can’t…we go back to our previous plan. I warn you though. I will fight dirty.” She warned.

God I fucking love her!

“I like it dirty.” He growled and I let out a warning roar bringing her wrist up to my lips. I licked the inside of it.

“I can’t wait to fuck you raw!” My grip tightened and I had the head of my dick right where he needed to be and faster than anything I thrust my hips up our skin slapping as I buried my cock into the deepest part of her ass. Her lower body lifted up and slapped as it came back down on me.

“Ungh” she grunted in surprise. “Fucker!”

My hands gripped the inside of her thighs and spread her holding her.

“Such a filthy mouth on my sweet hearted girl that is about to get what she asked for. Watch love. Watch what you asked for.”

Her hands came back to slide under the nape of my neck and she pulled my hair.

“I may of asked but remember I am the stronger one.”

“And I am faster so now that we have established that shut up and take it they way you asked…no…the way you begged for it!”

I slid out in one long fast stroke and thrust my hips forward again ramming it in deep both of us watched me bury it up her ass.

“God every part of this body is tight! Fuck!” My hands had a hold of her thighs. My hips pushed her up off me but my hands pulled her back down holding her where I needed her to be.  I sped up her body lifting with each thrust I opened her wider.

“God that looks so fucking hot pounding on that ass you little tease….You know damn well I am going to make that pussy come fucking hard and your going to get to watch it. Don’t you dare touch it! Just watch!”

She moaned out “that’s it Kitten keep it lubed there it is. I can make you come this way can’t I? Look at your pussy. The way it’s starting to spasm and swell. I know you see it. Feel it. I can feel it from deep inside your ass.”

My grip tightened holding her as her legs tried to close when her orgasm began to rip through her.

“Oh God Edward….I can’t hold it!”

“Don’t.”

Our eyes were fixed on her and I joined as I felt her clamp down hard.

“Holy shit! Fuck Bella! You’re fucking squeezing the shit out of me FUCK!”

Bella’s orgasm let loose spraying the mirror and blurring our view.

“That’s it!” I growled holding her to me I had her bent over the chair not losing my position.

“It’s my turn Kitten just be a good girl and take it!” I pulled all the way out and spread her ass and rammed it back in.

“JESUS!”

I repeated it over and over and she turned her head snarling and snapping at me.

“Nope not this time love!” I wrapped her hair around my wrist and hand and tugged her hair back leaning over to make her look up at me.

“How‘s that ass feel Kitten. Sore yet?” I smirked ramming it repeatedly.

“Fuck you.” She growled and had me now on the floor her knees were on each side of my head. I smiled up at her. So beautiful and so much spunk.

“Hmm…Can’t complain about this.” I let my tongue come out and lick right up her very wet center. 

“This is the way it’s supposed to be.” She gripped my hair and grinds her pussy on my lips and face.

I played along until I was straining from not coming yet and I let her hump on my face but I would not let her come.

“Oh Edward it was a wonderful attempt baby to distract me but...now…I do believe that you are in a shit load of trouble and as Ben so clearly pointed out I can and will not hesitate to call him if you don’t let me finish what we started.”

“Well cowboy?” she said again with out patience pulling back out of my reach on the other side of the room.

The little wench wasn’t going to let me come.

Clever girl.  

“Yes Mistress.” I replied with the biggest grin on my face. I had a feeling no matter how much she punished me it couldn’t hurt any worse than if she had said no and broken my heart.

“Bring on the punishment, it was still so worth it.”

“Edward I need a clean dick if you don’t mind get your ass in that shower and wash it!” She waddled past me with that sweet little ass swaying over to some box I hadn’t even noticed before.

I began to worry.

What the hell was in the box?

After a hot shower, that Bella eventually joined me in she led me back to the playroom this time fully naked and demanded I sit up on the table as she stood between my legs.

“Sit up on the table. Spread your legs and you are not to speak. Keep your eyes right here.” She pointed to her lips. “You may reply.”

“Yes Mistress.” This was somewhat hot calling her that. She was so adorable in all her dominance.

I watched the box come open and she pulled out a strange looking pair of cuffs.

“Don’t ask.” Her tone was firm. Damn I really wanted to know what the cuff was for and I found out when she fastened the thing to my bicep and tightened it.

Holy shit she had a way to keep me from using my strength!

Fucking Ben! I should have known!

She banded both my arms rendering me into a wimpy little human strength creature but then it only got worse.

“Lay back.”

I did as she said and when she cuffed my hands to the table that is when I saw the next item, she pulled out of the box and laid it on the table next to me.

This is another place I screwed up.

“UH Kitten what is that?” I asked.

Her eyes met mine and she was livid.

“Oops I mean Mistress.” Shit I didn’t have permission fuck I am so screwed here. This submissive shit isn’t as easy as it looks. More importantly, the fear that began to make itself known and the curiosity of what it was with that contraption she had in her hand and she went right for my dick with it!

I so wanted to protest. She already had me by the balls why not the cock too?

I grit my teeth, bite down, and bear with this. Who the hell invents something like this? It had to be a bitter scorned woman I thought as I looked at the steel little cage oddly shaped in my size.  

Then the blindfold took away one of my senses and I swear to God if my heart were still beating this would have stopped it dead in its tracks.

“Relax Edward. I promise you I will not do anything that I don’t think you can handle. Safe words what are they?” she asked.

“Lamb and Lion.” I replied.

“Edward what I am doing is placing something on you that will remind you of your place. You are a vampire so you know damn well that very little can hurt you and since you disobeyed me I have to punish you for those choices. They were not yours to make and I need you to understand why I feel this is necessary.”

I felt her hand grip onto my dick and I groaned in response involuntarily thrusting my hips forward.

“Quiet.” She demanded then her voice softened and she whispered, “Relax baby.”

I tried, really I did, but I was about ten seconds away from calling out lamb.

“See that isn’t so bad now is it?” she asked and I couldn’t feel a thing. Interesting. What was the purpose of this contraption if I didn’t feel it?

Yeah right, I should have thought that through before actually hoping for the answer.

I knew she was bare ass naked after our shower together but it didn’t matter when she took off the blindfold and I watched her in all her naked beauty. I mean what would one expect to happen? It’s a given that I am going to start to harden.

That was the exact moment my cock said hold the fuck up something isn’t right here.

My eyes dropped to my dick and they widened in absolute horror.

“Edward eyes on me!” she demanded and I looked back to her wanting to literally break free and whip her god damn ass for this shit especially when I saw that little smirk.

He had to add his two cents. Let me just say he looked at me and down at my dick and just shook his head and muttered “unbelievable how the hell you managed to get us into this mess?”

I had no answer for him and I was mortified. This right here is where I learned this much-needed lesson. It took every ounce of strength I had to trust her and what she was doing. I am doing this willingly but I have reservations. Bella doesn’t. She eagerly offers me control. She is a Demi God in my eyes now. This side is surprisingly not from her mom but her father. Charlie would have done anything to please her Mother whom he adored and still loved but didn’t talk about it.

Her mother was a strong willed woman who knew what she wanted even if they were irrational things she didn’t allow it to hinder her from going after it.

I found that oddly interesting that it is only now that I see where Bella gets her will to submit from.

Who would have thought Chief Swan was a natural submissive.

I took Isabella into my playroom that first night and she trusted me without a second thought. I stole her sweet innocence on a bondage table where I had other submissives performing all kinds of shit.

She trusted me.

She never should have. I felt like shit.

“Permission to speak Mistress.”

She nodded watching me.

“I understand.” That was all I said to her as I tried to really convey myself with my voice and my eyes.

Her head tilted to the side a little. It almost looked a little relaxed from the stern look she was giving me and she whispered, “You need training Edward. So do I. We both want this as a part of our lives and if we are going to do this then we have to do it right. We start over from scratch. We learn our roles together. If I am going to be what you want, I need to have a committed Dominant who knows how to handle me. I am totally opening myself up to so many new things, I am coming into my own, and I need training because I want to be this for you…but baby I want you to train me. I really think we can be so freaking hot together. I want to go to parties and have your collar on while we watch a sexy scene and learn things to do that we enjoy and can bring back to our playroom like Alice and Jasper do with the ropes.”

“I swear, I don’t know what cloud you fell off of but heaven’s loss is my gain.” I winked at her and so badly wanted to ask her what the hell was on my dick.

“Did I give you permission to speak?” She glared at me and I could see the amusement in her eyes. How could she be mad at me for saying that? Right? Huh?

“Answer!”

“No Mistress this is harder than I thought it would be. Can I ask a question now?”

“What is your question?”

“What is this thing?” I nodded down to my dick.

“It’s a chastity belt.” My mouth fell open. “It is called the seven gates of hell and it keeps you from getting a hard on. The cuffs render you strength useless to an extent. And this…” she trailed off and walked over to the wall and grabbed a cane walking back to me, “…is if you don’t mind your manners.”

She thwacked it once on my thigh and to say I was stunned was an understatement. Vampires don’t feel pain…but that right there hurt!

“Ow mother fuck!”

Her brows furrowed in anger. Shit!

“Now silence.” She commanded and I closed my mouth quickly and just delved into her thoughts.

He is actually going to behave? That would be awesome. Now I have remembered what Tia said. Muscle worshipping hmmm…

She was still buck naked and her hands came up and traced the line of my arm around the band as it was tightly fitted against my bicep.

“Hmm…so fucking sexy.” She whispered and leaned down and placed little kisses along the muscle she had weakened with the band. She then walked around to the side and flipped herself up to land perfectly straddling my body her feet flat against each side of my hips. I nearly groaned out at the view I had looking right up at her slick center. My cock started to harden again and then it was reminded that it wasn’t allowed.

I know exactly what you’re looking at you little naughty vampire...

I loved hearing her. This is my Bella uncensored and she is so witty and impish. It’s adorable.

“Do you like the view? Answer.”

“Yes Mistress.”

“Hmm…so do I.”

“If you don’t mind I really need some release.” Her tone was a little whimper, closed her eyes, and stood over me while she would pet her kitty. Her finger picked up its pace. She was fully masturbating above me and my dick was denied the ability to come as if that wasn’t bad enough but to be forced to watch her get off and not get hard.

I let out a guttural roar. It was in warning.

She dropped down on her knees and placed one hand flat on the table next to my ribs while the other traced the line down my chest over my abs. I could feel the electricity that she gave off whenever she touched me. It was almost as if her body was charged and energized.

I wonder if I lick his abs if either he will shudder or his skin will pebble up.

Listening to her thoughts was going to be my undoing if she kept this up.

God I just want to straddle him yank that thing off and ride him so fucking hard.

It took every ounce of my self-control to not react to those thoughts. If I did, I was as good as dead. To reveal this now was neither the time nor the place. My dick is currently being held captive in a steel cage.

Her knees moved backwards down a few inches and her hands were next to my ribs. Her chocolate tousled hair was now flowing down tickling my stomach. She looked up at me through her lashes and commanded me. “Watch me. Do not remove your eyes from what I am doing.”

I kept my eyes focused and watched her tongue come out and she began at my hip bone and she proceeded to lick slowly her eyes on mine as her tongue followed my iliac furrow down to my groin. I groaned out loud fighting the word “fuck” to keep from coming out of my mouth.

“Mm…” she lifted up, moved to the other one, repeated the motion, and then sat back on my legs still straddling me. Her nails started at the tops of my thighs and she let them scratch lightly over the tops of them, moving wickedly slow down to my knee. I watched every move she made listening to her.

God he is so sexy. How can anyone be so utterly perfect? I love every inch of him. His skin is silk and stone. His breath is sweet like honey and I could get lost in those fourteen carat golden eyes for hours at a time. I can’t believe he wants me. Me!

“How does this feel?” She asked as her fingers moved up my sides nearly tickling me. 

  

“You may answer.”

I smiled and replied, “Sexy.”

Her eyes widened for a split second and I saw the little smug smirk peek out before she composed it.

“Sexy huh?”

I waited.

“I think your pretty sexy yourself there.” She moved up hovering over me and her hair fell down around my face like a curtain hiding us away from the outside world now. It was just her and me.

“So sexy I want to kiss you.” Her eyes were shining and the little smile she had was amazing. Bella had a sense of confidence at this very moment.

I think he really does find me sexy right now. Is that possible?

I almost blurted out the words ‘Don’t doubt it!’ She lowered herself down and pressed her lips to mine sweeping her tongue inside of my mouth outlining it and swirling her tongue in the most sensual way. I was so focused on kissing her that I hadn’t realized she had moved to straddle my thigh lowering her wet pussy down on it. She hummed in my mouth at the feeling it brought her.

“Fuck I am so damn excited I need to get off…” she moaned out continuing to kiss me.

I am going to get off on his thigh. I am going to enjoy this. I have control over the friction my pussy is going to get to feel and he has to allow it.

I could feel her pubic bone press against the muscle of my thigh and I would swear Bella has an uncanny ability to be wet at any given moment.

“Oh…mm.” She moaned closing her eyes while I tensed up my thigh giving her a sturdier surface.

Her teeth swept over her bottom lip as she let her eyes roll back and her clit made contact with my thigh muscle as the flesh of her lips fell open at the pressure.

“Oh yum…oh god…mm…hmmm…God I am so fucking close just so…fuck…it feels so damn good!

Her hips began to move faster grinding into me her breaths grew shallow and she licked her lips looking into my eyes. She sped up her humping and was nothing but a blur. 

Fuck she was getting so off on me!

“Can I come?” She asked and I just stared at her wondering why the hell she expected me to answer.

“Oh please. I need to Edward!” she humped harder and I just laid there being the toy she needed.

“Say yes God say Yes! I want to come! Fuck!”

Bella had slipped into her submissive persona and I didn’t know what to do.

“Fuck I can’t wait!” her hips were humping on me like a wild woman. Her speed and the friction she was getting are taking her to her zenith. She cried out lifting up on her knees all of her weight now centered right on my thigh both hands gripping the top of my thigh to hold herself steady and she rode me hard like she did the first time. Her sweet wetness dripped down my leg while that bare pussy moved back and forth her hips grinding and swirling.

This is when I felt the pressure of the chastity belt. I couldn’t stop from being hard and it was becoming rather uncomfortable. Bella’s eyes met mine and I tried to convey without asking. I needed this off or I was going to end up with a bent and damaged dick.

Her eyes turned that hue of burgundy and she hissed and licked her lips.

She was coming out to play.

I am going to fuck you so fucking good hard you’re going to be begging me to stop.

“Where is that inner beast Edward?” she purred, “I certainly thought you would have let him out again since you did so quickly before. I would have thought he would have protested the very thought of being caged up like that.” She nods down at my steel encased dick.

Fuck me. Who the fuck was this girl? Then she continued to push buttons.

“I am sure he isn’t going to like it one bit when he gets claimed like the little bitch he is.”

My eyes widened in surprise. Okay it was cute at first but now she is starting to stir him and he doesn’t like this shit one bit. It seems when Bella gets a little power it all goes to that smart mouth of hers. These words were not even hers. She was her alter ego. I liked her. She was fun. But she was pushing it.

Oh you little vixen, you think you can fuck with me and not suffer the consequences?

 He replied only she didn’t hear him as she let her fingers tease my cock while it was still encased. I bucked my hips to get her attention without speaking and her eyes met with mine. I fucking glared at her.

“Is there something you want to say Edward?” then she smiled and I was down right fucking pissed. This is not Dominating someone this is fucking fucked up is what it is.

“Isabella is this what you learned from Ben?” I asked trying to stay calm and she paused as if she was thinking, but her mind was totally blank. Her eyes narrowed and she started to speak but before she could utter the first word, I snapped at her.

“You don’t take a stick and poke the bear in the cage Bella trust me karma is a bitch and right now baby your acting like one.” I sneered.

“Am I now? What is wrong Edward you don’t like it when you’re the one that’s restrained? What am I doing so wrong that you didn’t do to me the few times I have been handcuffed to a table, or a chair, or a swing?”

My voice deepened and my Master persona was about to be unleashed on her worse than I ever had been on one of the girls when they pissed me off in their attempts to touch me.

“Let him go. Unfasten him and let him show you the way it works Kittenella…because this is not how you dominate someone! What are you afraid of? Getting fucked thoroughly and properly?” I spat.

“She didn’t say you could speak. So I will let that one slide. So come on…what is it you like to be called…oh yeah….Master….Bring it on.”

Bella was learning to master her vampire speed. She had me unfastened and flipped up off me landing on the liberator on her stomach. She looked back smirked a wicked little grin and mouthed. “Come and get what is yours!”

“Fuck yeah!” I growled and was behind her and I knelt down spreading her legs and licking up the very center of her. “Fuck that’s the sweetest taste in the fucking world.”

I stood up and reached forward pulling her hair into my hand tugging it back.

“Who do you belong to?” I hissed smacking her ass hard.

“YOU!”

“Whose dick is the only dick that fucks you?”

“Yours baby!”

“BEG!”

“Please Edward fuck me!”

I leaned forward and whispered in her ear forcing her head to turn to the side. “Look in the mirror.” Our eyes met and I smirked. “This is the way it is supposed to be. You bent over for me offering this tight body up for me whenever I want it. Your going to be such a good little submissive aren’t you?” I said between clenched teeth.

“Oh God yes. Whatever you want!”

“Oh Kitten you really want to know what I want?”

“Yes!”

“I want to fuck you till you can’t walk, sit, or move without feeling the pain that my dick can inflict on that sweet teasing little kitty. Are you sure, you’re ready? Are you sure you want me to unleash him because baby right now I am ready and so is he.”

I smacked her ass cheek hard, her back arched, and I pulled her hair back towards me.

“Say IT!”

“FUCK ME!”

“You forgot something Kitten.” I reminded.

“PLEASE MASTER!”

“Perfect.” I slammed my cock into her burying it as far as her body would let me, pulled back, and tighten the grip on her hair slamming into her again. I took it up a notch faster each thrust forward and tugged her hair holding her hip with my hand. 

“Fuck I love fucking this pussy! You are one naughty wet little bitch in heat aren’t you?”  He growled.

“You like it though don’t you!” she snapped back.

“Oh yeah I most certainly do now shut up and take it like a good little girl!”

I slammed and pounded into her burying my cock and letting him take whatever he wanted from her.  I worked her in every position I could bend her in. Never letting up and never giving her a break. She wanted it and so she was getting it bent over, spread, legs opened as wide as I could get her. I fucked her holding off an orgasm until I just couldn’t any more. Her inner demon was cussing at me, pleading, and begging. She was a total slut and I fucking loved her.

“It’s time to come Kitten and you better come with me or I swear to God I am going to strap you down and whip that pussy till it comes for me! Now fucking COME!”

I slammed into her one last hard thrust, her body shook, her eyes rolled in the back of her head, and she cried out “Edwardddddddddddd fuck I can’t hold it!”

Bella sprayed while I was still buried inside of her spilling my seed. “Holy Shit baby I can feel that shit! Oh my fucking God do you know how incredible that feels…So fucking hot! Kitten baby that feels fucking good I can’t wait to make you do that again!”

I bent down, laved my tongue over her scar, and locked my teeth into her as she convulsed on my dick harder than she ever had before.

“That’s it baby keep coming….Oh fuck take me with you!”

Her body quivered as my cock savored every last drop my mouth drew in the sweetness that was us. Before I took one last draw I pulled my cock out and slammed in, shot another thick stream filling her, coming harder than I ever had as my body shook from the intense orgasm while I fed on her.

Her scream to fight me off did nothing as the beast within me roared and then gave the most satanic smile while I sealed the wound.

Ours!

“Mine.” I whispered in rebuttal.

“Well see.” He smirked while he licked his lips.

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AS ALWAYS SPECIAL THANKS TO TRACY FOR HELPING ME REWORK THIS ENTIRE CHAPTER. I HAD A MOMENT OF INSANITY BUT I AM PAST IT OVER IT AND MOVING FORWARD! 

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Just a little note for the next chapter....It will be entirely in Ben's POV as to what happens after the failure of this little scene and let me just say...Ben is a little bent! lol... 

I have a reccommendation for you guys! Seriously...I just started reading a fanfiction that is so taboo but so utterly real it is unbelievable! This is like listening to me when I was actually more like thirteen and guys took notice only this Bella is sixteen! Yeah Edward is like twenty eight! like I said Taboo...
but the reality is we girls are like this and we know it!
It is called
PIGTAILS BY Tenley Einde
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